November Notes #5. 2018.125.
I went to a million (give or take) in-service courses as a teacher/principal.
I think they are called “professional learning” now and I also know they “count” towards accreditation each year.
I also devised and delivered many as both a teacher and University tutor and Adult Educator.
So what is this about in relation to my final November notes?
It’s how my personal development was & is enhanced by having cancer.
I am aware I have written at some length about the processes I have learned behaviour-wise and they are here, on the page “Denyse and Her Cancer Story”.
What I will do now is write about my changes in behaviour and attitude and how this can be linked to my cancer diagnosis. To make it easier and for me to see the changes, it will be in photos.
- I gained independence
- I became much less anxious and fearful following my diagnosis and subsequent BIG surgery
- I tried new things with greater ease than ever before
- I knew that to follow the processes and trust in the professionals, I would be OK.
- I sometimes had to challenge the negative voice inside that wanted it all “done and now”
- I found calm in more ways than I realised: particularly by going outside, into nature and doing art.
- Independence after 8 weeks!
- Tiny pieces of donut & coffee!
- Beginning a routine for good.
- Travelling to Hornsby to see family.
- Amazed at what my mouth has in it.
- Finding the sea a great help.
- Making food creatively and with nourishment
- Meeting up with on-line friends.
- On a Ferry! Nothing says Sydney more.
- Sparkly gift from a friend. Comfort!
- Dressed up and travelling to Sydney for GD’s 21st.
- Back to say THANKS to Oral Surgeon.
- Wet or dry, how I love crossing here.
- One arm: 11 hrs surgery, other one, 2 hours.
- My retreat at Budgewoi is under repair.
- Always here for giving thanks.
- No matter what happened, I trust the process at the Prosthodontist.
- Every Sunday I check in here & chat to owner
And then more:
- As I already knew from the experiences of ‘exposure therapy’ the more I did the more I could do with increased confidence
- Things do not occur linearly nor with ease and of course there were (still are at times) so tears that spill over and some worries
- What is different now is how quickly I recover and re-group
- It feels so much better for me to be a calmer person who is less afraid to travel, meet up with friends old and new and see greater times ahead
- I can also put the “cancer voice” back in its box with relative ease by using my thinking strategies well.
- I no longer try to ‘case manage’ anyone else’s behaviour.
- I accept with great assurance that not only am I doing the best I can, so are most people
- I am much more likely now to reach out a hand in friendship and care rather than recoil because of the anxiety and fear based on social engagements and effects of IBS.
- I found my smile again.
- Intricate art helped centre me away from mouth pain
- Despite the pain and look, I learned I could endure.
- Wed for 46 years.
- Wanting to spread the HNC awareness.
- Listening and nodding…about “loss”.
- Love sent to my by a friend.
- Meeting Marty Doyle – at HNC support group.
- Practice teeth and smile! wow.
- Moving house: not great but necessary.
- Creative sandwich eating.
- Knew I faced a 4th Surgery but still promoting! This time, CancerAid
- Always helped by these.
- Pre-surgery #4 at Circular Quay
- I embraced the HNC awareness!
- In a book! Me. Wonderful
- Post surgery collages.
- Off to Westmead (again!) and confident too.
- Bookmarks for others with Cancer
- My Soup for the Soul Event raised over $400.
- With Dad: Double Chins inherited.
- Second chance to smile before teeth added.
- A sense of humour when “over” the wait for teeth
- Back to Dobroyd neat where I grew up.
- Cooking for me and the freezer: adaptability/
- My mandala became a card for cancer patients.
- Grounding time: at the beach.
- Getting outside & also art helped
- Wonderful patient Prosthodontist
- Selfie with my Prof & Cate
- Bliss: giving crunch food a go.
- Happy Birthday to a darling grandchild.
- We won! Gratitude award.
- Why I am tired!?
- Kirsty & I met…after 2 years of trying!
- Met fellow blogger Sanch for morning tea
- Leanne reached out to meet too.
- Visited my daughter’s library at school & loved seeing this from me on the wall.
- And so, this is our new Christmas tree & tradition
And this is why and how having cancer helped me grow. It is a learning process of course. However, I am loving how my life is now and what I have gained back from this past 18 months living with a cancer diagnosis.
There is such a phenomenon called Post-Traumatic Growth. Article can be found here.
This resonates with me:
Types of personal growth
People may experience different types of change while coping with cancer, including:
- Improved relations with others. Living with cancer may increase feelings of closeness or intimacy with family or friends. It may make it easier to connect with others who have had a traumatic event.
- New life experiences. Having cancer may change your priorities, causing you to make different life choices. You may be motivated to make a career change, overcome a fear, or fulfil a life goal.
- A greater appreciation for life. A cancer survivor may have an increased regard for life’s value or a new sense of vulnerability to death. This awareness may help you appreciate the world in new ways.
- A sense of personal strength. Living with cancer can help you develop increased mental strength and a sense of empowerment. You can be proud of what you have accomplished.
- Spiritual development. Some people living with cancer find they gain an increased interest in practicing religion or adding spiritual depth to their daily lives.
Having post-traumatic growth does not mean that you have completely overcome the stress and other feelings about having cancer. Growth and suffering can happen at the same time. In fact, most people who report post-traumatic growth also report having struggles. A person may grow in one area of their life and not another, or in a number of areas at different times.
I have been incredibly fortunate of course to have the surgeries and treatments and I never downplay cancer but as an educator I know what it has taught me and continues to teach me.
Have you had experiences that have changed part of your life and your outlook?
Please share!
Denyse.
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