Sunday 5th April 2020

If I Could. 31/52. #LifeThisWeek. 2018.67. 30 July

If I Could. 31/52. #LifeThisWeek. 2018.67.

I am pretty sure when I considered this optional prompt is was not about wealth, health and all that jazz. But they were the first thoughts that came into my head starting to write. Instead, I am going to make some lists and here they are:

Past

Photo: Feb 2017

If I could:

  • I would tell this me (above)  that I am pleased that I have made it through a very stressful time related to moving house, leaving family and finishing my work life but…..
  • there is actually more to come. Stress I mean. Yet, despite what it will do to me emotionally, it will teach me that…
  • I am able to shift my thinking (despite my anxious brain) to be able to challenge myself to accomplish what fear had told me was not possible.

Present

Photo: May 2018.

If I could:

  • remember that I have been and continue to be stronger and more resilient than I ever thought because…
  • I have managed a head and neck cancer diagnosis in May 2017 with courage, tenacity and a determination I never knew I had as evidenced by…
  • my ability to bounce back emotionally despite some pretty serious setbacks/hiccups over 4 surgeries and 4 recovery times
  • my physical body’s wonderful capacity to re-generate and heal itself without direct engagement with me, other than…
  • caring for myself as well as I can with a limited eating regime, getting outside each day and doing some walking along with engaging in meaningful social occasions: on-line and in the community

Future

Late July 2018.

If I could:

  • be confident about this man and the love and care we have had of and for each other for the past 47+years then all will be well because…
  • we are indeed a partnership for life and….
  • the laughs and chats we have with each other are as important to our health and welfare as any medicines.

That my friends, is my take on “If I could”.

Denyse.

 

My blogging friend from Ballarat is starting a first day of the month linky called Good Grateful. I think it’s always a great plan to reflect on gratitude! In fact, I AM grateful to her for rekindling old blogging friendships recently which spurred me on to making a Blog Roll on this blog!

Thanks so much Caz! Her blog is called Room For My Soul. I wish you well and will be there for sure! 

Joining with Alicia here for Open Slather.

You can link up something old or new, just come on in. * Please add just ONE post each week! * Feel free to go with the prompt for the week to add your ‘take’ on the prompt. Or not. * Please do stay to comment on my post as I always reply and it’s a bloggy thing to do! * Check out what others are up to by leaving a comment because we all love our comments, right! * Add a link back to this blog in your post somewhere. I don’t have a ‘button’ so a link in text is fine! *Posts deemed by me, the owner of the blog and the link-up, to be unsuitable for my audience will be deleted without notice. * THANK you for linking up today!

Next Week’s Optional Prompt: 32/52.  Countries I Have Visited  6/8/18.



 

 

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Any Regrets? #LifeThisWeek 39/52. 2017.113.

Any Regrets? #LifeThisWeek 39/52. 2017.113.

I first thought of this prompt as a list where I would write my regrets.

Oh.

So then I had a review of why I thought they were regrets and that opened a conversation between me and my husband about the futility of the list. However, before I sign off on no regrets, these were on that list*:

  1. Leaving the state super scheme aged 22 because I could and my husband was already a member.
  2. Selling our Kellyville house and putting much more of our borrowed dollars into a new build of our own at Bella Vista only to have to sell it to keep ourselves from bankruptcy only 4 years later.
  3. Deciding to resign from my role as principal rather than continue in the way in which Work Cover wanted me to in steps and stages starting with working from the local district office.
  4. Generously giving our adult kids hefty (for then and now!) deposits as early inheritances so they had security for their future and that of our grandchildren or future grandchildren.
  5. Saddling ourselves with a much larger mortgage than we could sustain once I had reached 60 and found working most days a physical and mental challenge.

*I note that each of these is money-based and yes, I am that person who likes financial security (we have it) but I am still someone who would like to have had more. That’s who I am. Not proud of it. It’s me. 

This has been hard in some ways to re-visit these landmarks in my mind….but that IS the whole point. They are in the past. I cannot change a thing about any of them. I need to leave them where they are but also to recall, from time to time, the learning they have afforded me.

That is: I cannot control the ways in which others may respond to my or another’s gifts, choices, decision and the like. The only way I can move on is to say to myself “I forgive myself for some of those decisions and will use my memories of them to guide me for the future me and centre the present me on where I am in this moment”.

Some findings on-line about regrets here:

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I did have some songs come to mind too with lyrics about regrets but rather than give you ear worm (which you just might regret!!) I offer the titles only.

Non Je Ne Regrette Rien – Edith Piaf

My Way – Frank Sinatra

I am interested to know how you view regrets and if you have been successful at letting any regrets ‘go’…..

Thanks for reading!

May I ask you to come over and read TOMORROW’S post here or on I Blog on Tuesdays link with Kylie or

on Thursday’s link with Leanne because I have an ANNOUNCEMENT about 2018 Life This Week!!

Denyse.

On Mondays I link with Alicia here for Open Slather and with Kell here for Mummy Mondays.

You can link up something old or new, just come on in. * Please add just ONE post each week! * Feel free to go with the prompt for the week to add your ‘take’ on the prompt. Or not. * Please do stay to comment on my post as I always reply and it’s a bloggy thing to do! * Check out what others are up to by leaving a comment because we all love our comments, right! * Add a link back to this blog in your post somewhere. I don’t have a ‘button’ so a link in text is fine! *Posts deemed by me, the owner of the blog and the link-up, to be unsuitable for my audience will be deleted without notice. * THANK you for linking up today!

Next Week: Letter to My 20 year old self.


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